Today was a day of transitions. I had my first class of the semester, and Amelia went off to college. Rick, the Ex (hell, I guess I should be calling her by name, shouldn’t I? okay, Renee), and Sage all went up to help her move in and do the family activities that surround move-in day, and I had a class discussion about the importance of the Vietnam War. I’m not bitter about it, because, after all, there are some days that should belong solely to a kid and her parents (and her sibling). The nuclear family, if you will. I am generally totally fine with such events, after all, they’ve all worked very hard to get her there. And yet, I’m sad, because this is the first big event in her life that I’ve missed. I’ve seen school plays, school concerts, her graduation…anything that was important to her, I made time to go to. But this one, I sat out. And so I’m feeling a little disconnected right now, something that is heightened by being thrust back into the cycle of homework.

I guess I’m at a loss. I hope it passes soon.

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