Anxiety driven post April 14, 2005 ~ 3:14 pm
Posted by Julie in : Daily Grind , comments closed
That same Indian restaurant, interior. Holy glitz, Batman!
I can sort of see my desk for the first time in three weeks. Today is a cause for celebration, friends and neighbors. I finally got through all the degree audits on my desk. But it comes with a price. I’m fucking exhausted, and we are still six weeks away from the busiest time of year in my office. Commencement. At this point, I honestly don’t know how I’m going to make it - I feel so drained already. Just grit my teeth, make lots of to do lists, and go home and drink a couple of beers every night, I guess.
Adding to that is the stress of my upcoming college reunion. As soon as Commencement ends, I will be flying out the office door to JFK to catch my flight to Pittsburgh. I don’t think it will be stressful while I’m there - after all, it’s a generational reunion, which means that my best college buddies Kim and Dawn will be there, and Kim and I are driving up and rooming together. So that will be fine. It’s just the idea of getting there. I don’t mind flying, even pre-9/11. What I do mind are the hundreds of details that could go wrong. Ask anyone who has ever gone someplace with me (at least that we paid money to go to!), I’m neurotic about getting there on time, making sure we have everything we’re going to need, all that shit. I always feel like I’ve forgotten something or something is going to go wrong, even when everything is perfect. I’ve already got that feeling about the trip to Pittsburgh, and it’s still 6 weeks off. Goddess help me.
Last but not least, I’m reviewing my finances. Things are a little tight around my house. That fucking trip to the dentist this week cost me $250 out-of-pocket because my insurance sucks. I’ll get about half of that back, and in the meantime it’s on my credit card, making me pay interest, because of course the appointment was scheduled before payday. I’m worried about taking Jesse to the vet tomorrow as well. They told me the visit will cost $40, but I imagine that they’re going to have to do bloodwork to see if there’s anything wrong with him, and if there is, then there will be medication to pay for as well. All of this while I’m trying to save some money in case I decide to move…well, it makes me more than a little anxious. I need a beer, and it’s only 3:36. Dammit.
I’ll get through this. I will come up with something hysterically funny to make you all laugh. In the meantime, because it’s Thursday and Thursday means Apprentice, I’ll leave you with this little tidbit I learned when George Ross (The Donald’s advisor on The Apprentice) came to campus last week: The Donald’s chair in the boardroom is perched on a little dais to make him seem taller and more imposing. Must be good to be King…
